InsyaAllah I’ll do my best on this Ramadhan…

 

One of my plans is… I am going to finish a book written by Harun Yahya… “ 24 Hours in The Life of A Muslim “… and I also will publish what I have read day by day… my intention just to share with the readers hope it will give some benefits for me as well as the readers… InsyaAllah… pray for me to stay istiqamah… and I hope this Ramadhan will be one of my steps to change to be “ someone” to Allah not to people only… be kind, following what Allah and Rasulullah said… the Real Life Scheme… I hope this will be one of my profittable investment for the Day of Resurrection… Amiin…

It will be a long journey…

 
 

somehow... till what time... I did not realize ... I am already a year mired in the world of medicine ... almost a year I lived in Egypt ... struggling with medicine in Zagazig University... learn to live far from family abroad ... I am not unfamiliar with my family apart, since primary school I was studying in the hostel... Act I didn't have any problems regarding to home sick or anything else... 

so many things I learnt day by day ... piling the strong foundation of medical studies ... even now I almost completing my first year here... waiting for the result of my exam to come out... standing as a doctor was my ambition from my early age... I am very grateful because its not influenced by my parents or anything...

but I did forgot when I was really keen to do medicine... I have to give all out of my efforts to be great in field... I have to study well, smart... for sure really hard... I think I'd wasted a year in Egypt... I do not pay attention in class... lot of dreams... I damnly thought that it was easy to study medicine ... I did last minute study... Act there are no last minute study in medicine... 

Now, I realized that the interest alone is not enough to jump and score in medical study... yes for now I believe that interest should be there to boost the spirit of the time we lost with the situation... but in-depth of the medical knowledge... I need to know ... your interest have to include with the crazy efforts... not easy to become a doctor ... the patient's life is our responsibility ... who came to receive treatment put their trust on us...

...why did I forgot all this when I was having fun watching korean dramas... chatting without discussing topics that gives me benefits??? ...

... I did forgot that this was the trust from Allah for me...

last night I did some blog-stalking... I've read many blogs of medical students all over the world... even the malaysian doctor's blogs... most of them are all excellent students with good results in SPM... not like me... I have not succeed to score with good result during the SPM exam before... If they want to compare my SPM result... I was not eligible to continue studies in medicine... I'm not eligible... I managed to enter this medical school of zagazig university as they require most minimum academic requirement... you can enter medical school in Egypt even when you get one C grade in any subject exept the biology... this is the minimum requirement to enter faculty of medicine in egypt...because of my deep interest in medicine and Alhamdulillah there was no objection from my ma and abah, I chose this path... because I think I can do my best in medicine ... but I did forget, when arrived Egypt ...I was playing a lot... dreaming... I did non-stop chatting... I did not give full concentration in my studies... I did last minute study... bla bla bla...

I want to start anew... do it again... from the beginning... I know I can do it...  this is what I dreamt for... I'm not interested to be a doctor to gain more money... Money is not my priority... yes sometimes I do agree to be a doctor is to have a good financial in life... but when I think again... that's not my point to become a doctor... my interest drive me to propose to my abah... " abah, abang ingat abang nak sambung medic la..." my ma did asked me..." sure ke abang nak sambung medicine ni...?"

InsyaAllah ma and abah... I'll start anew again... do my very best to cheer you up with my achievement... make you proud of me... make you feel that your both sacrifices sending me abroad to do medicine using your own money is worth... and now I am taking another path to turn my dreams into reality... InsyaAllah I want to start anew in China... I'got an offer 

Now I have to list up things I must have... must do... sketch my dreams... colour it into reality... I've done reading many blogs of medical students... hope I can use and learn from their experiences...

This is what I am going to do...  Change... Istiqamah... Obey Allah's Rules and SUCCESS !!!

Reaching the Sky... Repentance

Assalamualaikum...

What happened yesterday, we are no longer able to turn back and change it

What happens tomorrow, we still can not predict and guess what will we have to face

but certainly for sure TODAY, we are able to do things that will be good for tomorrow thus repair bad things we did yesterday...

Got a chance to enter the medical school was a big opportunity to me to fulfill my childhood's dream ... 

I remembered the time when I was a child, I used to play "doktor-doktor" with the my uncle, two years older than me ... 

I will hold the position as the doctor and my uncle will be the patient and who was suffered from brain cancer ... nauzubillah ... luckily he did not really suffer from brain cancer ...

i used to play like this with my uncle...

that was the beauty of childhood...

but what I have to go through now is the fact I was already entered the medical school and is now close to completing my first year of studying medicine... now only need to wait for exam results which will come out soon ... 

the reality when you get into a medical school... 

where your parents are proud to inform to people that "my son will be a doctor..." 

your former teachers will tell the juniors that their former student now learning medicine 

the relatives proudly praised us that "wah, you soon become a doctor, must be great..." 

"Have a great future"??? 

In fact when you're going to enter the medical school you have already chosen the hard road...!!!

Its not easy to learn and live as a medical student ... many things we need to remember ... we are not studying just to pass the medical exam and get excellence...

but the important for the public later ... 

Our intent is important in the pursuit of ambition to become a real doctor... 

At first I thought I could learn medicine easily relax... and now I know it was wrong... I should not take for granted... happily go here and there... use my parent's money as I like... huh 

It was not easy to remember and understand the physiology... not easy to memorize the anatomy... by LM EM Histology... Biochemistry as well... In the exam, I answered not really so good... I've failed my exam... I can not answer the questions... so frustrated...  

Enough ... the time that passed I can't ask the doraemon to give me the time machine and go back...

What is the most important now is that I need to repent and start over... re-plan strategies... start from the beginning... InsyaAllah I promised myself to make a change... do not do last minute study... I will study today like tomorrow I'm going to take the exam...

Allah, I seek help and forgive from you... Strengthen the my spirit... Give me the strong faith so that I can face the life with blossoms of calm... I know Allah I was wronged... I repent to you ya Allah... please accept my repentance...

O you who have believed, repent to Allah with sincere repentance. Perhaps your Lord will remove from you your misdeeds and admit you into gardens beneath which rivers flow [on] the Day when Allah will not disgrace the Prophet and those who believed with him. Their light will proceed before them and on their right; they will say, "Our Lord, perfect for us our light and forgive us. Indeed, You are over all things competent." At-Tahrim-8

Thanks Allah for still giving me the opportunity to make a change today...=) 

setiap hari adalah pengalaman yg mendewasakan diri

Assalamualaikum buat hati2 yg maseh lg Allah beri nikmat kehidupan...


kdang2 aku tpiker... payah nye la hdup di prantauan... tp aku mseh lg yakin dan pecaye yg aku boleh study n excell in exam... hdup relax n comfort kt bumi firaun n nabi musa neyh... kdang2 aku pn jd pelik... knpa mende neyh jd mcm neyh... n nape mende tuh jd cm neyh... serabut tau x kenkadang  klo pker... smpe kn kenkadang aku dh x tau la nk buat ape...


ok then back to the topic... aku nk share la sket ape yg dh aku lalui spanjang aku hdup kt bumi mesir yg 3 days to go 3bulan aku kt sni... haha bru je nk msuk 3 bulan kt sni... but aku rse ade dh la sket pngalaman... bukan pngalaman yg besar n hiperbola sgat pn... just pngalaman2 kecil yg jd unsur tmbahan dlam khidupan hrian aku...


first skali... dengan ape yg aku nk ckap aku rse baek aku clarify balek ape aku tujuan utama aku  start walking with blog neyh... sbb nye aku ade multi perasaan dlam dri aku n kite smua kn... so aku rse dri pde aku simpan je perasaan yg bad tuh dlam hti aku... jdi kn hati aku tmpt timbunan sampah... baek la aku lepas je... sbb tu aku sket pn x kesah dngan ape yg org akn bce n ape yg org akn pker dri ape yg aku cbe nk smpekan... aku really appreciate sesape yg bg pndangan but aku jugak appreciate sape yg x suke dgan ape yg aku tles n boleh blah dri blog neyh n hdup aku...


sbb nye aku bukan main actor pn dlam pentas lakonan dunia yg sementara neyh... aku pn x tau sape la aku akn jd dlam dunia neyh... mgkin cebisan smpah or mgkin cheese cake yg sedap, org suke mkan or mgkin emas yg berharga, org suke beli simpan n pkai... tp really aku just nk clarify ape dlam blog neyh aku nk tles ape yg aku rsakan... ape yg aku lihat, pandang, dengar n smua yg blaku dlam hdup neyh... but sejujurnye aku akn cube luahkan scara politely la... kenkadang pngalaman yg sgat ... make my mind also stuck...


BENUA AFRICA-MESIR-SHARKIA GOVERNORATE-ZAGAZIG-SALAM SAID NAWI-IMARAH BABA SAID-TINGKAT SATU-KANAN-BILIK KIRI FIRST PINTU-MEJA STUDY KANAN


huhu.. tu la... aku nye coordinate...


aku akan mula cuba mencari makna sebuah kehidupan... matlamat aku... doakanlah...