Reaching the Sky... Repentance

Assalamualaikum...

What happened yesterday, we are no longer able to turn back and change it

What happens tomorrow, we still can not predict and guess what will we have to face

but certainly for sure TODAY, we are able to do things that will be good for tomorrow thus repair bad things we did yesterday...

Got a chance to enter the medical school was a big opportunity to me to fulfill my childhood's dream ... 

I remembered the time when I was a child, I used to play "doktor-doktor" with the my uncle, two years older than me ... 

I will hold the position as the doctor and my uncle will be the patient and who was suffered from brain cancer ... nauzubillah ... luckily he did not really suffer from brain cancer ...

i used to play like this with my uncle...

that was the beauty of childhood...

but what I have to go through now is the fact I was already entered the medical school and is now close to completing my first year of studying medicine... now only need to wait for exam results which will come out soon ... 

the reality when you get into a medical school... 

where your parents are proud to inform to people that "my son will be a doctor..." 

your former teachers will tell the juniors that their former student now learning medicine 

the relatives proudly praised us that "wah, you soon become a doctor, must be great..." 

"Have a great future"??? 

In fact when you're going to enter the medical school you have already chosen the hard road...!!!

Its not easy to learn and live as a medical student ... many things we need to remember ... we are not studying just to pass the medical exam and get excellence...

but the important for the public later ... 

Our intent is important in the pursuit of ambition to become a real doctor... 

At first I thought I could learn medicine easily relax... and now I know it was wrong... I should not take for granted... happily go here and there... use my parent's money as I like... huh 

It was not easy to remember and understand the physiology... not easy to memorize the anatomy... by LM EM Histology... Biochemistry as well... In the exam, I answered not really so good... I've failed my exam... I can not answer the questions... so frustrated...  

Enough ... the time that passed I can't ask the doraemon to give me the time machine and go back...

What is the most important now is that I need to repent and start over... re-plan strategies... start from the beginning... InsyaAllah I promised myself to make a change... do not do last minute study... I will study today like tomorrow I'm going to take the exam...

Allah, I seek help and forgive from you... Strengthen the my spirit... Give me the strong faith so that I can face the life with blossoms of calm... I know Allah I was wronged... I repent to you ya Allah... please accept my repentance...

O you who have believed, repent to Allah with sincere repentance. Perhaps your Lord will remove from you your misdeeds and admit you into gardens beneath which rivers flow [on] the Day when Allah will not disgrace the Prophet and those who believed with him. Their light will proceed before them and on their right; they will say, "Our Lord, perfect for us our light and forgive us. Indeed, You are over all things competent." At-Tahrim-8

Thanks Allah for still giving me the opportunity to make a change today...=)